💥 The War I Didn’t Know I Was In
I was always exhausted—because I was always in fight mode.
But the fight would make no sense to anyone else. No one else even knew I was fighting.
The fight was with myself.
The life I had created was biting me in the ass.
I was pissed. I was tired of being angry.
Tired of feeling horrible about myself.
And yet, I’d look around and think, “I’m doing pretty good.”
I had a life I was proud of.
I was raising good kids, working jobs I mostly liked, with people I mostly got along with. I had friends. I went out.
But something wasn’t right. I felt like a zombie walking through a decent life.
Pretending. Performing. Smiling.
Meanwhile, no one knew what was going on inside me.
I never let them. Why would they ask?
They didn’t know I needed anything.
They never saw past the mask I wore to make their lives easier.
I was exhausted from trying to make everyone else happy, while quietly falling apart.
💬 Becoming My Own Best Friend
I pulled back from the world completely. I didn’t want to deal with people.
I didn’t want to be seen, so I turned inward.
I started talking to myself.
Yes, I decided to be my own best friend.
After grieving the loss of a best friend of over 30 years, I understood the weight of grief—and the power of redefining everything.
I began redefining everything: my values, my relationships, the words I used, how I spent my time.
That’s when I started exploring energy.
Everything is energy—positive or negative.
And I get to decide what either one means.
I get to decide what’s mine and what’s not.
That changed everything.
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❤️🔥 Fighting in the Name of Love
I had been feeling unappreciated. Unseen. Lonely—no matter how many people were around me.
My energy was in constant fight mode. No wonder I was anxious.
I could feel the energy swirling inside me. Everything felt urgent. I needed answers, action, results—yesterday.
But in all my effort to help others, I forgot about myself.
I realized I was showing up for everyone except me.
I stopped doing favors for people who took me for granted.
I started helping only when it felt like my energy would be appreciated.
I was done being a fallback plan.
Done making other people’s lives easier while mine got harder.
I get to decide who gets a share of my energy.
🎭 The Masks We Wear
I was lonely because I wouldn’t let anyone in.
I wore masks to become who you wanted me to be.
Why? Because I didn’t feel wanted as me.
I didn’t want to be around myself—so why would anyone else?
I was angry no one wanted to listen to me.
But I didn’t even know what I wanted to say.
That’s what years of soul searching gave me.
And it didn’t come overnight—it came in phases.
Today, I invite you to be patient with yourself, should you decide to take this same path.
Because there is so much peace on the other side.
💫 Learning to Let People Miss Me
When someone is gone, we miss them. But what do we miss?
That question helped me heal from grief.
I had been focused on what was missing—the physical presence, the hugs, the phone calls.
But when I focused instead on what I had gained from knowing them, I no longer missed the energy.
I could feel it in the memories that made me smile.
To feel appreciated, people need the space to miss you.
So I learned to enjoy my own company.
I stopped chasing validation. I stopped clinging to people when I felt unappreciated.
Now? I like it in my world.
And I protect it—not with anger, but with compassion.
Because I know now: hurt people hurt people.
If someone wants my help, I’m here for anyone open to learning.
But how open are they, really?
Sometimes people share their pain, and I offer a new perspective—a way to feel differently, to shift the energy.
But instead of feeling heard, they feel dismissed.
Why?
Because they’re so deep in hopelessness, they can’t recognize hope.
And I won’t climb down into that hole with them.
I won’t match that energy.
I can love them—from afar—until they’re ready to choose a different story.
It’s almost like an energetic test:
Which energy is stronger—my love, or their fear?
If they decide to believe in something better, I’ll be here.
Until then, I choose peace.
💡 Redefining Love, Redefining Me
I used to think the only reason anyone wanted my company, if it wasn't professional was because they found me attractive.
So I gave my body away to feel wanted.
They wanted me to validate them. In exchange they validated me.
But then I took a hard look at how I was showing up in my relationships. I asked myself:
Who am I to each person? Who do I want to be?
I realized some of the people I was bending over backwards for weren’t friends.
They were teachers.
What was the lesson? Boundaries.
I get to do the choosing.
I get to choose myself.
I don’t have to wait to be chosen to feel important.
Loyalty can be mistaken for love.
So I asked: Who am I being loyal to?
Am I making someone or something else more important than me?
When I sold the house I grew up in—when I let go of that emotional prison—I broke free.
I wasn’t just letting go of a house.
Until then, I held onto the house out of loyalty to my dad, who had been gone for over 20 years at that point.
I was letting go of the version of me that lived there.
And everything changed.
✨ When You Stop Looking, Love Finds You
As soon as I stopped worrying about finding love, it showed up.
I didn’t just find love—I was reunited with my first love.
The first man who ever told me he loved me.
And now, we’ve been married almost five years.
When people said traveling alone might get lonely, I told them, “I’m sure I'll meet someone along the way.”
I did. I met the grown version of me and the grown version of him.
Then we recognized the magic of alignment.
We have made magic since then, and can't wait to see where we go from here.
Now living our "Happily Ever After"
That's the short version of our love story as of now.
What I Know Now
1) I no longer need to be liked.
If someone doesn’t like me, I ask:
Do they affect my life?
If not, I let it go. If they do, I learn how to work around it.
2) My energy isn’t for everyone.
Most people who don’t like me simply aren’t ready to like themselves yet.
And that’s okay. That’s how I know who to help—and who to walk away from.
And, thirdly,
Anxiety is the desire to live in a future moment.
That insight changed my life.
When I learned to understand anxiety, I stopped making hasty, regret-filled decisions. I stopped rushing. I stopped grasping.
And I finally heard what life had been trying to tell me.
Anxiety is a superpower. A premonition—proof that what I want is already on the way.
It's life telling you to notice the moment you're in right now.
"Have faith in your energy and in the Universe.
What you want is on its way. There's something in your experience right now you might appreciate if you noticed."
🕊️ Ending the Internal War
If you know my poem, you may remember the line:
“Where the wars have all ended.”
I used to think that meant world peace.
But now I understand.
The real war was never out there.
It was the war inside me.
The war with my past. My needs. My worth.
With the stories I wasn’t ready to let go of.
Now I teach others how to end that war—
Because as long as you’re fighting, the Universe will not concede.
Final Thoughts: What Wars Are You Still Fighting?
Is it your health? Your money?
Your relationships? Grief?
What wars are you still fighting?
You don’t have to keep fighting.
You don’t have to prove your worth through pain.
And you don’t have to travel your healing journey alone.
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You are not broken. You’re becoming.
Are you becoming who you've always wanted to be or what you've always feared of becoming?
The world you create will always begin with you.
What do you want your world to look and feel like?
💗
Always with love,
✨ Yael ✨
The Universe Whisperer